Today is here and I don’t know how I feel right now. This morning I took my baby girl to her first day of First Grade. She’s no longer a baby and that has been made very clear to me this summer, especially this last week for some reason. She spent a week with my parents on the farm in Nebraska recently and after she got back it was very apparent that she no longer was my baby. I am so very proud of my girl because even though this morning was pure chaos with kids and parents everywhere she held her head high and wanted to take care of her things by herself and was proud to be sitting in her own desk today. A very special moment! Did I cry? Well I have been asked by my daughter several times if I was going to cry and I have been persistent that NO I am NOT going to cry because I’m excited for her. This morning I kept completely composed until my husband and I got back out to the car and I looked him in the eyes and out came the tears. It is a new beginning for all of us on so many levels right now and her and I will no longer be together like we have been.
I have also been asked what I am going to do with my time now and my answer is, I don’t know. Probably bury myself in my photography for awhile until I figure out this new day to day life I have. I recently read an article on Mamapedia about a woman who sent her youngest to first grade. These words of hers speak volumes to me, “It is strange but as a stay-at-home mom if you do your job really well you are rewarded by having your job taken away from you little by little. Today I was demoted to part-time.” That is exactly how I feel, demoted to part-time.
Am I crying? You betcha!
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